Can't Turn off my Brain- Creating
Jan. 28th, 2023 07:51 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
patchworkorangeSo, as we all probably know, I had hit a creative roadblock in the past brought on by abandonment. Jeffrey left, and I shut the door on my studio for years after. Through much therapy and hypnotism, I was able to release that block. But ever since then, I've hit OTHER roadblocks.
As we all know, I love a vintage Singer sewing machine. But I'm feeling now, that my desire to create is overshadowed by the frustration of vintage. And it's been proven trying to do many many things since I created the studio in our new home. I'm going to list the blocks I've come upon and it's just frustrating enough to make me throw up my hands and lead Jeremy to believe I've "lost interest".
*Featherweights offer a tiny bobbin. Even before working on a quilt, you have to wind many many bobbins.
*Featherweights are straight stitch only. So I bought a 301 but I couldn't get the old free motion foot of my past to do what it did in the past (total new design). So I bought a 401a that offers decorative stitching, but every time I use it, I have to take it all apart to grease gears and get the stitch levers unstuck. This is not a big deal.....but I'm at the point in my life where I simply want to sit down and sew. I want to create. I want to be inspired. But it all seems like such a chore anymore.
*I miss the features of my Janome Memorycraft that I raised money for. The EASE of that machine made creation simple. The stitches themselves were magnificent. Even offering a simple ZIGZAG without needing a zigzag attachment (that vintage Singers need) is intriguing. I proved it to myself when attempting to repair Tobias' baby blanket....I had no access to a simple small zig zag :(
At this point in my life, I have two Featherweights, a 301 short bed, a 301 long bed, a 301 aqua repaint that Jeremy did, a 401a and a Babylock Quilter's Pro. That machine was given to me and it offers a longer bed and 1500 stitches per minute, but no utility stitches. The 401 could possibly provide everything I want.....but I just don't know the machine well enough and it's not a heart machine, if you know what I mean. I don't think I'll ever get used to the idea of raising the needle plate for free motion, instead of dropping the feed dogs.
It's like, everything I have was purchased to remedy a problem from something else. And I STILL don't have the functions I want. Why can't I have what I want AND need?
Thursday is Bag Lady day at Olive Juice. And I'm going to look at the lower end Kaffe Bernina. I really do not want to finance anything.....but if I sold all but my heart machines, maybe?
I will never rid myself of the '41 Featherweight (gift and most perfect), the 301 long bed (rare), or the repaint. While my Centennial has been my go to for years....it would be ok to let her go, and the short bed 301 is beautiful....but could see a new life with another.
Why would I spend more for a Kaffe machine? Because just LOOKING at it thrills me. And that is what I've wanted to feel, for years.
Ugh. Talk me out of it.
As we all know, I love a vintage Singer sewing machine. But I'm feeling now, that my desire to create is overshadowed by the frustration of vintage. And it's been proven trying to do many many things since I created the studio in our new home. I'm going to list the blocks I've come upon and it's just frustrating enough to make me throw up my hands and lead Jeremy to believe I've "lost interest".
*Featherweights offer a tiny bobbin. Even before working on a quilt, you have to wind many many bobbins.
*Featherweights are straight stitch only. So I bought a 301 but I couldn't get the old free motion foot of my past to do what it did in the past (total new design). So I bought a 401a that offers decorative stitching, but every time I use it, I have to take it all apart to grease gears and get the stitch levers unstuck. This is not a big deal.....but I'm at the point in my life where I simply want to sit down and sew. I want to create. I want to be inspired. But it all seems like such a chore anymore.
*I miss the features of my Janome Memorycraft that I raised money for. The EASE of that machine made creation simple. The stitches themselves were magnificent. Even offering a simple ZIGZAG without needing a zigzag attachment (that vintage Singers need) is intriguing. I proved it to myself when attempting to repair Tobias' baby blanket....I had no access to a simple small zig zag :(
At this point in my life, I have two Featherweights, a 301 short bed, a 301 long bed, a 301 aqua repaint that Jeremy did, a 401a and a Babylock Quilter's Pro. That machine was given to me and it offers a longer bed and 1500 stitches per minute, but no utility stitches. The 401 could possibly provide everything I want.....but I just don't know the machine well enough and it's not a heart machine, if you know what I mean. I don't think I'll ever get used to the idea of raising the needle plate for free motion, instead of dropping the feed dogs.
It's like, everything I have was purchased to remedy a problem from something else. And I STILL don't have the functions I want. Why can't I have what I want AND need?
Thursday is Bag Lady day at Olive Juice. And I'm going to look at the lower end Kaffe Bernina. I really do not want to finance anything.....but if I sold all but my heart machines, maybe?
I will never rid myself of the '41 Featherweight (gift and most perfect), the 301 long bed (rare), or the repaint. While my Centennial has been my go to for years....it would be ok to let her go, and the short bed 301 is beautiful....but could see a new life with another.
Why would I spend more for a Kaffe machine? Because just LOOKING at it thrills me. And that is what I've wanted to feel, for years.
Ugh. Talk me out of it.
