Once Upon a Time
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patchworkorangeback in oh.....1997? A young 27-something housewife got a new-ish computer and was introduced to the World Wide Web. The early days of the internet seemed a barren landscape, not very many things of interest, minimal quilt sites, but there was one site that offered a plethora of interaction and that site was a quaint little "chat room" complex with rooms that ranged from friendly, to all out porn.
Bianca's Smut Shack.
Nowadays, the friends made through the site remember fondly the interaction, and the relationships....but for this young housewife back then, the writing capabilities were endless. I can't remember the room that enticed me, but it was anonymous and safe and I started my first ever post. I can't even remember what the subject was.....can't remember the tone. All I remember was that my screen name was Jag (after Jagnightwalker, my original screen names back then based on a series of dreams I had, what I'd considered "spirit animal" dreams). I left the post open ended for interaction.....
Throughout time, many "regulars" became continual commenters on Jag's posts, one user being "AP". The posts and interaction between Jag and AP became shows of humor, intellect, and eventually....passion, foreplay and desire. Screen fantasies were hot, the synergy for all to see was palpable. Eventually Jag and AP took the conversations private. It wasn't until then, that she learned who AP was. His name was Adam Parker, and he lived in Australia.
Jag and AP were well known now as real people who were slowly, REALLY falling in love in front of the eyes of Bianca's Smut Shack. We talked so much about our lives; she was married and unhappy, he was married and unhappy. Phone cards and a program called "Cool Talk" was introduced into the equation, and the rest is history.
I left my marriage to be with Adam. We had an apartment. I got pregnant. He was (at the time) undiagnosed Aspergers syndrome and it was extremely difficult to maintain a relationship. Long distance, pregnant and sick, a man who either smothered me in tears and emotion, or froze me with coldness. Extremely difficult. But the love always remained.
Adam died on July 5th 2021, AUS time, from a sudden diagnosis of stage 4 metastatic renal cancer. July 4th, in the USA. Right before the fireworks started. We shall remember his passionate personality every year. But boy was he ready to fight that diagnosis and had the best outlook, his body just didn't play along.
Tristan looks and acts so much like him....DNA isn't a joke! Tristan is musically talented as Adam always was, he's intelligent, and now he vows to carry Adam's heart with all he does in life. Adam loved everyone and inspired so many and Tris wants to do that in his honor. It helps him to read memorials from Adam's friends on FB, and to see pics of young Adam. The resemblance is eerie and uncanny.
As for me, I know that the innocence and naivete of Jag and AP will remain in my heart forever. Such a loss, far too soon. I will miss your friendship and influence, my dear friend.
Bianca's Smut Shack.
Nowadays, the friends made through the site remember fondly the interaction, and the relationships....but for this young housewife back then, the writing capabilities were endless. I can't remember the room that enticed me, but it was anonymous and safe and I started my first ever post. I can't even remember what the subject was.....can't remember the tone. All I remember was that my screen name was Jag (after Jagnightwalker, my original screen names back then based on a series of dreams I had, what I'd considered "spirit animal" dreams). I left the post open ended for interaction.....
Throughout time, many "regulars" became continual commenters on Jag's posts, one user being "AP". The posts and interaction between Jag and AP became shows of humor, intellect, and eventually....passion, foreplay and desire. Screen fantasies were hot, the synergy for all to see was palpable. Eventually Jag and AP took the conversations private. It wasn't until then, that she learned who AP was. His name was Adam Parker, and he lived in Australia.
Jag and AP were well known now as real people who were slowly, REALLY falling in love in front of the eyes of Bianca's Smut Shack. We talked so much about our lives; she was married and unhappy, he was married and unhappy. Phone cards and a program called "Cool Talk" was introduced into the equation, and the rest is history.
I left my marriage to be with Adam. We had an apartment. I got pregnant. He was (at the time) undiagnosed Aspergers syndrome and it was extremely difficult to maintain a relationship. Long distance, pregnant and sick, a man who either smothered me in tears and emotion, or froze me with coldness. Extremely difficult. But the love always remained.
Adam died on July 5th 2021, AUS time, from a sudden diagnosis of stage 4 metastatic renal cancer. July 4th, in the USA. Right before the fireworks started. We shall remember his passionate personality every year. But boy was he ready to fight that diagnosis and had the best outlook, his body just didn't play along.
Tristan looks and acts so much like him....DNA isn't a joke! Tristan is musically talented as Adam always was, he's intelligent, and now he vows to carry Adam's heart with all he does in life. Adam loved everyone and inspired so many and Tris wants to do that in his honor. It helps him to read memorials from Adam's friends on FB, and to see pics of young Adam. The resemblance is eerie and uncanny.
As for me, I know that the innocence and naivete of Jag and AP will remain in my heart forever. Such a loss, far too soon. I will miss your friendship and influence, my dear friend.
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